Actually getting fit

I know I’ve posted quite a lot before about how I wanted to get fit and that I would start jogging and stuff. I always have moments of incredible excitement about such things, but in the end nothing happens. Until last week that is!

About a week and a half ago I got frustrated and so fed up with being unfit that I signed up to the gym. I had been making excuses as to why not to, but I just needed to do it!
When I start doing something new, I don’t just half do it, I fully go for it. So I’ve been going to the gym almost every day!

I downloaded a couch to 5K app to help me with my running, because I had no clue as how to start. It’s an 8-week plan and I started on week 3 as apparently I was slightly less unfit than I thought I was. (I was able to jog for about 5 minutes, lol)
Each week has 3 workouts, and I’ve done the first one of week 5 yesterday!

I am so proud of myself for actually doing this! It’s of course still early days, but having paid for a gym-membership gives me some motivation to keep going. And I’m also quite enjoying it actually, it’s very though sometimes (I took a metafit class and I was ready to die at the end of it), but once I’ve done it I feel great!

I’ll keep you updated on how I progress as the weeks go on, but I’ve got a positive outlook on it! 🙂

Love, Suzanne


Half a year in the wonderful England

I can’t even believe it, but I’ve already lived in England for over half a year now! It seems both such a short and long time since high school, it’s crazy.

I have some friends who are graduating high school this year, which is very strange. For me it seems like such a long time ago, I couldn’t even imagine stil being there, so much has changed. But then again thinking back it still feels so familiar and like I would fit right back in. I especially feel like that in the periods I spend in Amsterdam, because nothing here is related to my uni (okay expect for the massive 1400 page chemistry text book laying next to me)

I’m starting a new term, Summer term, at uni next week, where I will have 3 weeks of lectures, then 2 weeks off, then 2 weeks of exams and finally a 3-week project. That’s it, after that I will have already finished my first year. That is unbelievable, only a short while ago I was this nervous fresher, with no clue of what I was about to begin.

I’m currently thnking about what the hell I’m going to do with my summer holiday. I should really get a job, because uni is expensive, but I’m back to the same problem as last year where every job seems so boring. I saw something where you could work at a holiday park in the Belgian Ardens, which seems fun, but it slightly clashes with my scout camp, AARGH. I might just apply and wait and see if I even get offered a job, which I could always decline.

But summer jobs can wait for a bit longer, right now I’m very excited, because when I’m going back to England on wednesday my best friend is coming with me! She will be staying with me for a couple of days and it’s going to be so nice to fnally show someone where I live. I can’t wait 🙂

Love, Suzanne


The past few weeks: an update

The past few weeks of my life have been a bit crazy.  I did some incredible things, which was so exciting, but I also went through a bit of a low, which was difficult.

I’m going to start with the happy things, because you know YAY!

I PERFORMED IN A PANTOMIME, ALADDIN. This was definitely the most exciting thing that has happened since being back at uni. As you can read in this post, I was part of Aladdin. Now, just over a week ago, we had our performances. The week of the performances, prod week, was the craziest week ever. We had rehearsals until deep in the night (2:30 am), I was definitely sleep-deprived, but the adrenaline of the actual performances kept me going! The show was incredible and it was the best thing I’ve been part of certainly in university, but possibly in my entire life!

On a totally different note, but also very exciting (though in a weird and different way), I’ve become a court representative for my college. My college is where I live, and my court is the specific building block I live in.  I’ve been wanting to get involved in university a bit more, because it’s a lot of fun, but it’s also really good for my CV. So now I represent the people in my building and I help organise small events in my college, which I think will be really nice, as I’m getting involved, but it’s not that big a role, so I don’t feel overwhelmed!

Now really on a different note, the not so happy stuff. I had exams the first week of this term and during prod week of Aladdin, I got my results. I knew I hadn’t done very well in one of the two, but even though I knew, it was still difficult to see my actual result. Don’t get me wrong, I have passed, but I was just disappointed in myself, which resulted in me first crying in front of my supervisor, then later crying in front of more people at Aladdin rehearsals (definitely not great). I’m doing alright now, but going through this I have discovered that there are some underlying mental problems that need to be addressed. This has resulted in me actually contacting the mental health services on campus, which terrifies me, but I’m also very proud of myself for taking this step, as it was a hard step to take for me. I will try and keep you up to date on this as the weeks pass if I feel like it. I haven’t yet heard back and I have no idea what to expect, so it might take a while.

Overall, these past few weeks have been pretty crazy, but I’m happy about the direction my life is heading in!

Love, Suzanne

One year!!!

Happy birthday to me! Today my blog turns one, which is so exciting!!!

I can’t believe it has been a year, it has gone so quickly.
One year ago I decided to start this blog, it was a project, I was going to try and blog every day. When that got too much I went to just blogging whenever I wanted. Yes, sometimes I don’t post for weeks, and sometimes there are a couple posts in just a few days, but even though irregular, I love it.

Blogging has been a way to express myself like nothing else. Ranting about random stuff to strangers is great and actually quite helpful. I hope that I’ve also managed to have at some point given some sort of slightly useful advice to others.

I’ve really enjoyed every minute I spent on here, and I can’t wait for the years to come! 🙂

Love, Suzanne

p.s. Tomorrow there will be a blogpost with a bit of an update on my life as there hasn’t been one in a while!

What have I been up to in 2016 so far?

2016 has so far been an interesting year for me. I was incredibly excited for a new year, it felt refreshing and I felt ready to tackle my goals and my aspirations. And that has been both going well, and not so well.

For me 2016 started with flying back to the UK, jep definitely the weirdest thing to do on the 1st of January, also very much not recommended.
Unfortunately for me I really had to go back, because exams, for which I had not learnt, because I was having a great time at home. My exams were the first week back at uni and even though definitely I could’ve revised a lot better they ended up being alright. I had some time-management issues, but they were after all my first exams of uni, so I’m trying to not beat myself up about that too much!

The other mayor thing going on right now is the fact that the pantomime I’m in: Aladdin, wil be on NEXT week! That’s so crazy, and I feel like we’re definitely not ready yet. The coming week is production week, which means rehearsing every evening with performances on Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. I’m incredibly excited for it, it has been quite time-consuming, but it’s been so much fun and being part of it has been the best thing I decided to do in uni so far! 🙂

As far as my new year’s resolutions are going, I think mine are probabaly going like everybody else’s, not amazing not terrible. I’ve been eating healthier, but haven’t done much exercising. I’m still procrastinating uni work, but I wil continue to try and work on it.

I hope you’ve all been having a great year so far!

Love, Suzanne

My holiday!

My first term of university ended at the beginning of December and I’m starting again tomorrow, meaning that I had about a month of holiday!

Shortly after the holiday had started I flew back home to Amsterdam. It was so wonderful to see my family and friends again, who I hadn’t seen for 3 months.
I think going through my first term I thought that I was alright, that I wasn’t homesick and that I wasn’t missing them that much. However, it turned out that I did miss them quite a lot and seeing them again made me quite emotional.

Throughout the holiday I struggled; I had an amazing time at home, everything was just so much easier than living at university. This made me think about my decision to move to a different country for university.
Adjusting to living somewhere else on my own has been difficult and I did wonder if it had been worth it. After having been at home for about 3 weeks I did realise though that I wanted to go back to York quite bad. I’m really enjoying university and living on my own, and I feel a lot better now that I’ve seen my family again. Coming back to York feels so different than arriving the first time, I know what to expect, I’ve got friends and I feel like I’m getting a grip on living in England.

I went back to York on the first of January, which isn’t the best day ever, but I’ve got exams this coming week. And I didn’t revise over the holiday, which I really should have. I also should be revising now, and tomorrow and the day after until Friday when my exams are over. (I’m only slightly procrastinating, oops)

I hope you all had an amazing holiday as well, and happy new year!

Love, Suzanne

Thoughts on 2016

2015 has almost come to an end. Basically, there is just Christmas and New Year’s Eve left, and then another year will have passed.  This year has been such a crazy year for me and I can’t believe it’s already over. Soon we’ll be faced with a new year, full of excitement and craziness! 2016 here I come!

When I get close to a new year I always get really reflective and I then get super motivated to change some things in the new year. This year is like no other, meaning that I right now feel very motivated to make some changes in my life.

My thoughts:
-I’m kind of done being unfit and not feeling great about my weight, so I want to lose some weight and get fit (or at least just a bit more than I am right now)
-I feel like eating a lot of meat isn’t very good, neither for me nor for the environment. I do like eating it sometimes, so my plan is to eat vegetarian whilst I’m in England, but not when I’m in The Netherlands.
-I’ve realized that university requires me to do more work than high school, which is normal, but I should put in a little more effort and do some reading outside of lectures and spent a bit more time on assignments.
-I need to start doing the things I want to without being scared of what other people think of it. I’m so worried that by doing something new I wouldn’t fit into the view someone, for example a parent, has of me. But that is unavoidable, I change and I might want to try a new thing, which is fine, as long as I like doing the thing.
-Reading is fun again, so I want to do it more. I struggled to like reading during high school, because I had to do it and I was marked on it. That’s no longer the case and I want to go back to before high school when I would read so much.

Those were just some of my thoughts and from those thoughts I’ll compose my New Year’s resolutions, which will be a bit more specific and personal.
I like having goals going into a new year even though I probably won’t reach any of them. They give me a clearer vision of what I want my life to be like and they motivate me.

Love, Suzanne